i've changed ...

no longer the little girl i used to be
im full grown now you see
realizing that in order to make it
i have to be the woman that waits inside of me
that means understanding that some dreams may never come true
to provide for my kid
i have to do what i have to do
even if that means show off parts of my body
maybe even act a little naughty
for some extra change
but nothin strange goin on here
im full grown now
trying to ignore the self doubt
but it keeps on comin, comin, comin
no matter how fast im runnin
so i stopped running tonight
either i'll take flight
or i wont
giving up my dreams
letting go of my hopes
somebody else will have to save Haiti cuz according to everyone around me
i can't do it
and that makes me unbelievably sad
but i have to understand
that not everybody understands why i am the way i are
why id rather give my million dollar lotto winnings to Africa
than to buy a big fancy house and cars
so ill focus harder on me myself and i
instead of trying to force the world to view life through my eyes
cant everybody be on my level
so i guess i have to bring myself down a few notches ... or actually ten
guess i have to settle for the less
and simply play the cards ive been given
wish i had a comfort zone
somewhere to run and hide
someone to protect me when i feel the stress all across my hyde
arms to hold me tight
and tell me it will all be alright
but i cant even get a damn phone call
just ornery text messages
and although ive changed ...
its all my fault ...
as usual

*cue the fucking violins*