suicidal

i committed suicide yesterday
it was easier than i thought
i just emptied the bottle
pill by pill
until i no longer felt distraught

i committed suicide last week
it just took a little pressure
pressed down hard on with the knife on my wrist
never had i felt fresher

i committed suicide last month
didnt even have to think
i put the chamber up to my skull
and waited for the trigger to clink

i committed suicide
in her arms i died
it was the hardest thing ive ever done
and for me ... she didnt even cry

and i cant blame her