cool on me ...

Love totally sucks for me most times ... more tears than smiles ... more wasted time than significant miles ... hence all the dreary poetry lol. I'm over it ... just went over the shit I wrote and realized some of it was good enough to post here for my fam to read. Hit me on my aim ... (its a new one) : thephreshone ... and tell me what you think (outside of the fact that I always pick the crazy girls to fall in love with lol) :)

Cool on me

Oh, so now you cool on me?
You been cool on me unless it has something to do with YOUR enjoyment
Wasn't prepared for my deployment and now you mad cuz I'm hurt
How the fuck am I supposed to feel?
Just fuckin fine ... because you feel just fuckin fine
Absolutely divine
Hiding behind your shrine
You can only worship a non-diety for so long before God plays ping pong with your skull
Don't try to play me dull
I'm the doublemint flavor the worlds been missing
And as far as I'm concerned
You're void and null
Cool on me, huh?
That fits into your plan perfectly
"Let's play with her mind"
These chicks seriously get off by jerking me
But it's all gravy ...
Cuz I'm super.
Thanks for asking.

an angry heart

im takin two steps forward
three steps back
ease the fuck up off me
gimme some slack
were all allowed to make mistakes
the funk
we sometimes have no choice but to fake
and at the end of the day
the only one who has to look at me in the mirror is me
same goes for you
so you should be doin everything that you feel is best for you
but you cant expect me not to be upset
cant expect for me to feel no regret
im not really mad at you
i have no reason to be
you made your choices in what you wanted
what you needed
and it turned out that its not me
and thats okay
but i still feel like shit about it
yet and still
ill get over it and past it and way far beyond it
you aint the first horse to buck my ass off into the barnyard
im safe in here for now
and being mad and "blaming" you is what i need to do
so just let me do it
when you read my pissy status messages
feel free to say "screw it"
cuz to be honest
right now, i dont care how you feel about me
love it or hate it
im still gonna shine
you're just a minor speed bump
ill be just fine
in time
now bask in the ambiance of my angry heart

StyleFree'in ...

the lack of love i feel from you to me
is moreso the reflection of the lack of love from me to me
why pour honey in your drink, if its not hot tea?
and if you know i dont know the answer, then why ask me?
if the only time i see the magnificence held within
is when i have your juices on my chin
then i aint worth much then
if me causing you to explode from the inside out
is what its all about
i aint shit
cuz a vibrator or a shower head can give you the same satisfaction
matter fact its some hoes on pch lookin
for work they been askin
they can give you the same damn reaction
i know im flashin
my insecurities just a little
i need love like fat bastard needs victuals
and im starved for affection
its like an 8 hour erection
HARD to deal with
sick of the lame shit
if i've ever seen "weak sauce" this is it
just wanna be down like brandy
cuz you're sweet
like candy
you make me randy
with your talk of college banter
your stories of the hereafter
hell, just hearing your laughter
makes me want you
causes me to taunt you
throughout the night until you let me toss you
up
i just stopped givin a fuck
call me wrecking ball
and be prepared to fall
cuz when me and my bitches step through the door - (say it wit me now)
girlz all pause ...

lol ... freestyles are fun lol